There was a time in my life when I wasn’t happy. I was depressed, anxious, had low self-esteem, and, often had a difficult time getting out of bed to go to work in the morning.

During this time, most of my friends were set in their ways. They had steady jobs. Steady boyfriends. They had fun, steady, 20-something lives. I was so happy for them, but also jealous. There I was; miserable in my desk job, and solving these woes with cheap beer.

It came to a point where I could do one of two things; I could try to make an easy fix and get a new job, or, I could make a life changing move and go back to school.

I went back to school.

It changed my life.

I chose the pediatric side of OT and I can honestly say that 75% of the time it never feels like work (paperwork isn’t so fun #amIright?). I go to work everyday and try to do my best for these kids, and in turn, they do so much for me. There’s one child at my facility who is so full of love and happiness that he makes me want to be a better person. These kids have taught me to not take life so seriously. They’ve taught me that expression can be manifested in so many different ways. They’ve taught me to not let a day go by without letting the ones you love know how you feel.

This article, How To Ruin Your Life (Without Even Noticing That You Are) throws an interesting perspective on milestones and visions that we see for our lives. It hones in on following your own path, being true to yourself, and taking life one day at a time.

Once I finished undergrad, I never thought I would go back to school. Now, almost 10 years later with a masters degree in my pocket, I feel so grateful and proud. Proud that 5 years ago I didn’t just throw a bandaid on my so-called life and get another job. I got a career. With that career came happiness, reflection, mindfullness, and strength. Those days of anxiety, depression, and low self-esteem are a thing of the past.

Now I get up early in the morning. And I like it.

What I take away from my experience is that with all the ups and downs that life throws your way, you have to take it one day at a time. There’s no magic fix. Hard work in all areas of life can only lead to personal success. Whatever your definition of success is, I believe you can only get there if you put in the time.

I would still love for some man to put a ring on it. I would love a colonial style house with a wrap around porch. I would love it to be light gray, with dark gray shutters and an emerald green front door. But, everything in due time.

#rightnow #feelingblessed #feelingsappy


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